I think I may be in trouble, I am so much in love with Mandolin. I would rather stay awake all night and stare at her than sleep. I’d rather hold her in my arms and hug her than eat. I hate leaving her to go to the bathroom because I don’t want to miss anything. This is nothing like I ever imagined. I had no idea how my life was about to change. To have something that depends on me 24 hours a day, is one of the most amazing feeling I have ever felt. To feel her hand squeeze my finger brings me to tears. Hearing her cry breaks my heart, so I do anything I can to prevent it, Bobby says that needs to change, so I can get some sleep!:) Through having mandolin I have fell more in love with my husband watching him be such an incredible care giver and taking care of the house and just showing so much love towards me. Also, I have learned to be a better mother to Faith, I have learned that maternal love that I thought I understood before but had no idea what it was as it turns out. I have learned to be comfortable in my own skin because there are way more important things in life than how I look. I sit here typing with Mandolin laying on my stomach and it all feels like such a dream, my life feels like such a dream. Mom called me last night after hearing the Aerosmith song I don’t wanna miss a thing and I looked up the lyrics and wow it is so much what I feel, I know it may be a corny and old song but the chorus is exactly how I feel:
Don’t wanna close my eyes
Don’t wanna fall asleep
‘Cause I’d miss you, baby
And I don’t wanna miss a thing
‘Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
‘Cause I’d still miss you, baby
And I don’t wanna miss a thing
